i am tired

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missy's spa..

have been trying to bring missy home every weekend since our wonderful time with her during CNY.. and we wana spend as much time as possible with her alone b4 i pop! cos of this.. and due to my big tummy and bad back, dear had no choice but to take on an extra role of being missy's "spa therapist".. haha! he's learnt how to bathe her and he's doing quite a good job! well done baby! love u loads and thanks for being a nanny/helper/cleaner/counsellor/masseuse/spa therapist etc etc to both missy & myself! =P

the cutest things missy does and says...

me: (stares @ her stepping on grandma's foot)
missy: (steps off and runs to mum)
mum: weewee 要不要喝 nen-nen?
missy: *whispers* mummy 生气 (then runs to me..)
me: what?
missy: cannot step on tai-po's foot!
me: ya.. be good okie?
missy: *grins* weewee good girl!
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missy with her lego bricks all over the floor.. and i'm telling her to clean up her toys b4 she can play with her bag of dinosaurs..
missy: mummy, weewee clean up clean up everybody everywhere..
me: good girl!
missy: PAPA!!!!!!!!! clean up!!!
dear comes over to help her.. and she picks up piece by piece SLOWLY... and says...
missy: PAPA! faster faster faster!!!!!!!!
dear & me roll eyes..
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missy finished her milk.. and we told her we are waiting for our dinner from PizzaHut to arrive b4 playing with her.. and she drags us to the dining table..
me: weewee.. dinner's not here yet.. we have to wait for uncle to deliver it okie?
missy: .....
5 mins later. food arrives. and we set the table.. missy insists on sitting down.
missy: weewee SOOOOOOOO hungry!!
then proceeds to finish that small sliver of bread only... tsk!
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mum warned her not to throw her laptop on the floor or else i will scold. she obviously didn't heed her granny's advice and kicked it off the sofa once mum turned her back.. out came the cane and few light strokes on her bum and palm. she cries while 美姨 carries her and tell her to apologise.. seeing that i m not so angry, she runs t0 me and hugged me..

missy: sorry mummy!
me: can u throw ur toys?
missy: no!
me: i dun want to see u throw ur toys again. u understand?
missy: understand! (stares at my cane and pondered..)
missy: mummy! use hands.. no cane!
me: *fainting* see? cane makes weewee bum bum red red oh!
missy: *starts sobbing*.. mummy.. KEEP the cane!!!!!!!
me: *ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
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the following are vids of us trying to teach weewee the right way to pronounce laptop. she has been pronouncing it as NEH-COCK for the longest time!! and we have been unable to change the pronounciation.. we reckon itz cos both syllables of LAPTOP requires her to "flip" her tongue.. but shouting NEH-COCK in public?? no no no no no no no!!

official countdown BEGINS!

cos baby ayden is engaged as of latest checkup on 18th march 2010 (thurs) @ 36 weeks.. ayden is estimated to be abt 2.7 - 2.8kgs.. my weight gain is slightly lesser than during adri's time but thinking about it now, i dun reali care! i just wana indulge in all my favourite, sinful yet yummy food before i pop.. might as well lose all the weight at one go right? hurhurhur..

dr. wong has given me the earliest dates for induce to take place to be ard or slightly before 2nd april.. and told me to choose a date for didi.. hmm... can i have natural labour without inducing? i m seriously hoping for it!

didi ayden, be guai guai okie? =)

simply love to sing.. will she grow up to be a composer??

missy loves singing. and she loves changing the lyrics! though this act started since CNY (from what i can remember...), it has now "soared" to new heights with her expressing her emotions through the lyrics too..

what do i mean by that? hmm.. see.. CNY's songs revolved singing "恭喜发财，红包拿来" (in different weird combinations of words & sentences) to different tunes ranging from "london bridge" to lady gaga's "bad romance"!!! just imagine our fun! hahaha..

and moving from such juvenile acts, she has gone on to ask for her cornflakes and anything she might think of in a tune or rap too! she has gone "want cornflakes want cornflakes want cornflakes" or "watch barney watch barney" quite a number of times.. =P can tell i m so proud of her right? wkakakakaka! got half my genes.. oops!

and on saturday (13th mar), she moved up the level again! when told in the car that we won't be bringing her to our place as promised due to the bad traffic at orchard after our dinner, she kept quiet.. only to break into her lil' song (can't remember what tune though).. we weren't paying attention but mum heard.. and she got us to listen.. missy was singing "no more mummy's place! not going mummy's place!" repeatedly.. ouch.. so heartpain to hear her disappointment like dat.. but on another note, we couldn't help but laugh out loud as usual.. this girl is creative!! hiaks hiaks.. let's just hope she has got the chance to develop such "talents" in future!

oooh.. another trip to imperial but at taka this time round.. compliments of lilian 姐姐.. =)

"SHY" missy with dear!
and oooooo.. her chubby cheeks are back! *PINCH PINCH*

and.. the reason for the latest hole in my pocket.. ... shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... dun say anything! hush hush.. HAHAHAHAHA!

my lame reason for the bag? new diaper bag! hiaks.. anyway.. *justification time*: this bag is huge and can hold loads! and yet itz not heavy on itz own!.. hurhurhur

my supermodel..

wee wee was sick and she lost some weight.. but phew phew! she's fine already.. along with my better mood.. keke..

珮姨 treated us to my fav wanton chicken soup & other yummy stuff @ imperial on 6th mar (sat).. *slurp*..
*touch wood* but missy has shown better behaviour recently at the makan table.. she'll still go for her toilet breaks but at least she is not as cranky as she used to be.. i really hope she continues with this good behaviour!! *crosses fingers and toes*..

tis is my much skinnier weewee.. (she looks tall huh? but erm.. no height difference.. still 87cm!)
my TWO darlings..

my THREE other darlings...

me and my sleepy baobei..

and.. MY very own SUPERMODEL!

anyway, remember the post with her POWER TOES during CNY period? 2 more pics to PROVE my point.. check out what she's doing to her favourite dinosaurs with her toes in the 2 bottom pics.. tsk tsk tsk!

beautiful feelings are back again... =P

sorie if i have worried anyone with my previous dark post.. and for those who knows how optimistic the real cherie can be, i m proud to announce the return of the HAPPY cherie! yippie!

nothing happened after my last post though i must say bb ayden has been so sweet to me cos he has since "moved" away from the butt nerve.. phew! however, the back & pelvic area hurts like mad now! still... i must remain positive. i try to think happy thoughts and i try to revel in the love & care by family & dear & missy... and i feel better already! *dbl phew!*

weather has been hot. hormones were raging. pain was killing. and i went crazy and depressed. i promise myself not to be silly/ depressed/ angry with innocent bb ayden or any1 else for that matter again. =)

thanks dearest friends & family! love u loads.. i will be fine! counting down 34 days (or shorter, please!) to the arrival of didi.. =P

i can't take it anymore...

yes. i can't take the back pains and spasms in the left butt anymore. spasms started after wee wee's episode at the hospital.. and getting worse by the day.

and my emotional state of health should be at its worst ever too. i always have a high threshold for pain and yet i feel damn blardy vulnerable and much of an invalid in my current state! i officially hate the bedroom now cos it only means the start of a painful 6-8 hrs for me. i can't freaking move my legs on my own. i can't turn without intense pain. i can't freaking get out of bed on my own!!!!!!!!!! pui! poor dear has to wake up countless times in the middle of the nite to attend to me and when we are with wee wee, he takes over. i know he's tired but he's really trying hard to make me feel more comfy. and it breaks my heart. cos i know i broke his, with all my crying every other nite.

and i HATE it when pple ask me the DUMBEST questions like "got so pain or not?". i seriously feel like giving anyone who dared post this question to me a blardy TIGHT slap across the face. i really feel like answering "yah.. itz not that painful. i m just making this up. i am such a stupid idiot with such low threshold for pain that even a poke in the arm could hurt me. that's y i m feeling this pain."

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.........................

we had a conversation the other day. and gosh. we are both feeling the same way towards bb ayden. RESENTMENT. i know i should resent myself more. i shouldn't have even thought of having a second one! i should have considered all previous pain factors before even thinking about it. maybe resentment is too strong a word. maybe it should just be indifference? i dunno but i simply dun feel good towards ayden. the only time i tink of him in my tummy is for the date of delivery to arrive sooner. argh.. dear confessed that he dun feel the same way towards ayden as compared to adri. gosh. why do we even have such thoughts?

i m now praying that ayden will be healthy, safe and happy. i know we will work hard towards learning to love him. and praying for patience and even higher threshold for pain to see me through the next few weeks without me literally banging my head against the damn blardy wall for relief.

anyway, some information on what i m facing.. pelvic pain..

What are the symptoms?
Pain in the pubic area and groin are the most common symptoms. But you may also have the following signs:
Back pain, pelvic girdle pain or hip pain. checked.
A grinding or clicking sensation in your pubic area. checked.
Pain down the inside of your thighs or between your legs. It can be made worse by parting your legs, walking, going up or down stairs or moving around in bed. checked.
Worse pain at night. It can stop you sleeping well and getting up to go to the toilet in the middle of the night can be especially painful. checked. and psst.. i can't even turn on my own efforts.

poor wee wee and her flu

my darling wee wee was down with fever since 24th feb (wed) and though it was the month-end, i rushed back home to check on my sweetie. she seemed fine in the evening but got super whiny when she as about to sleep.. and after 2hrs of sleeping, she woke up at 11pm+ and couldn't stop crying.. it seemed like she was breathless.. took her temp (39.8 deg) and decided we have to rush her to KKH since she also agreed by saying " i want to see doctor!!!" ouch.. my heart hurts..

the nurses reacted pretty fast and the doctor on duty concluded that she was wheezing after some tests.. a whole bottle of ventolin + another bottle of godknowswhat was loaded all on wee wee through the breathing apparatus (dunno wat itz called though... ha!) and she got the shock of her life cos of the vacuum created ard her nose and mouth.. then came the medicine feeding part.. then came the blood test.. oh my god.. after these 3 were done, she turned to say "i don't want doctor. i want to go home" with tears and fear in her eyes.. more OUCH in my heart...

luckily she reacted well to the ventolin & medicine.. phew! and as blood tests showed everything's fine except for viral infection and some wheezing, we were able to go off @ slightly b4 3am.. phew phew phew! collected her medicine and bought the cooling mattress pad for her and rushed home for some sleep b4 going back to office early the next morning for closing.. hurhurhur..

fast forward to 2nd March (tues)... dear & i were on leave for the gynae check up (i put on 200g, bb put on 300g and is 2.4kg @34 weeks.. yippie!!).. so we were back to be with wee wee!! family went for lunch and left wee wee with us.. and i tot i could rest.. but wee wee's stomach wasn't quite agreeable with what i had in mind.. she has a CHURNING stomach and i guess she must have experienced stomach cramps cos she appeared in pain while on the potty.. and stupid us thought it was the bum dat hurts... put on cream for her then washed her bum again since she was still screaming and guess what? while dear was carrying her out from the bathroom, she was already LS-ing.. but dear didn't realise the "small, watery drops"... until she reached the room and EXPLODED everywhere!! argh.. on the bed and everywhere else! poor baby of mine!! she was so distressed, she cried like mad.. had to calm her down by asking her if we scolded her.. shook her head.. then told her we love her.. then spent the next half hour clearing the mess..

and still.. luckily the stomach and LS subsided after a visit to the doc & loads of RuYi oil.. my heart was bleeding.. but glad she's much better by the time i left mum's place.. phew...